M.I.S.S

A call from mummy make me almost want to cry. : (

Mummy, I miss you! :'(

'' Money is just a matter, safety is the most important overall ''.

You're the greatest mother on the earth!

VIP! ♥

xo! ♥♥♥

Basketball.

Im sucks.

I only sleep 3 hours. : ( My mind keeps thinking about this monday competition. Im kinda emo now. Hmm, I don't know how am I going to match with

this sucky conditions. I didnt train at all. haih! Seriously, I regreted to say a 'yes' to my coach. I shouldn't join. I would rather give this chance to my junior

I really hate this kind of feelings. Sign. I dont want to achieve something, when I don't put any effort on it. No shortcut to achieve something! but why... I... sign!

I misses so much last two years SUPER. Everyone train so

hard for the competition. Yeah, we get second places our hardpay! We made the miracle, we beat Ipoh down. And enter final! The happiest moments in my life

. The memories still fresh in my mind. Everyone like, *jaw drops*. Hilir Perak won Ipoh?! See, results of real training! but this year everything vice versa.

We didnt train and just go competition like that. Will we success enter semi final

w/o any efforts? The answer is no. Its quite an impossible mission for me or other players thought.

I believed that other teams did well prepared for this competition but why hilir perak becomes like this? WHY?! Why there's a coach willing to train, but those players

like to give excuses cant go for training!? demn fucking hate this kind of attitude. You go for training, you the one who gain something not others. Not to mention

myself very good, no doubt every single training I will attend if Im at TI. I love training so much! I miss training with those seniors and my batch players like

whole lot. I really don't know why some players don't appreciate but yet keep giving those excuses cant attend training. If really, just don't join please.

Whats the point of joining the competition? For fun or what? Im feeling myself very sucks now!? I shouldn't say yes to my coach. i really afraid am will cause my team

lose in the match. Sign! We must win this two matches, so that will be easier for semi final's matches. Hmm, Kerian match I think lah, I think not a very big deal

for hilir perak. Utar abit tough. Gonna meet my ex teammate in the match. Good Luck, Lai Ling. ;)

My tears drop while Im viewing my basketball pictures from year 2006 while playing sentimental song. * :P, like purposely playing those sad songs. * Hmmm, from a person don't know a thing about basketball turns up basketball is her life.

I admit when starting, I take it for granted, didnt put heart on basketball, later soon I found interest in bbl, i start to tell myself not to give up

on bbl, keep going training, so that I can go further and more spaces to improve . Yeah, I can see the results after a year. ;) Im being chosen for Perak. I missed the three

chances have given. Hmm, for certain reasons I rejected. I regrets but Its over. Time cant turn back. Looking forwards. I really cant accept myself

didnt go for training and straight to competition! My first time ever. : ( I just went to play bbl but not training at all. Sign. I will tell coach, not to put me in main

five. I dont have the qualification anymore. No longer anymore. I wishes the best for us! Please. To be honest, I want to enjoy playing in the match but at the

same time I want to win too! Im not that kind of people who go for sake of playing. Im not. I enjoy and win the game. I want people know yeah, hilir Perak

still alive. Last two years, we did it! I felt proud of it until today! What about this year?

First match : Mon,14/3 (12pm vs Utar @ Sungai Siput. )

Second match : Tues,14/3 ( 9am vs Kerian. )

p/s : Hilir Perak players try our best okay?! Jia you okay, just do the best in the match. Good Luck!

#nowplaying - Im coming home.

xo! sign.

A bitter/sweet post.

I've learned that sometimes all I have to say is fuck it and live it!!

Hey, dudes bitches! How' yo day? Mine is fine, so far. hehe! I seriously, need to diet. please! *helps* Alaaaa! I know this is so annoying as I always complain

how fat am I bla bla bla but no doubt. i grow fatter ! Fml my deep2. demnnnnnnn. >.<>

Yesterday, went dinner with friends @Kl city, Jalan Alor If Im not mistaken. Hmmm. It reminds me quite alot thing. The last time, I went was last year.

I dont feel like admonish but memories keep flashing in my mind. I know I cant control it. I asked my friend, Rain to stop saying something like we came here

before... Hmm. Aiks. Another bad memories at here thought. Why la?! Too much bitter, too little candy coated memories happens on me! Fucking no fair!

I did something at my FB yesterday. I went to my privacy settings, then I clicked into ..... forgot liao. thr's a list A to Z. One in the list is '' posts, status and etc....

I click in and I set ''someone'' unable to view my wall! Yeah, I did finally.(Its because a status he posted last few days and I ''accidentally'' saw.... '' everytime, I browse thru, full with disappointment)

So, Im being heart kinded. ;) I did. But.. but.. I dont know if I should or shouldnt. Maybe, its good or perhaps. I don't know.

I really dont sigh of everytime, when Im viewing my news feed, I saw something that affronted me and manage to make me emo. I.dont.want.emo!

What my friend said to me it is very true, why is he so powerful or capable making me emo for whole day if he is no one to me anymore? I don't know why..... Just I feel teribble

bad. To be honest, I REALLY DONT HAVE FEELING TOWARDS HIM. Memories pull me back? Duration pulls me back? Feelings pull me back? Missing pulls me back?

Guitiness pull me back? I don't know! Ohfuck! I've blogged bout him again. Do you all know that, I've deleted all my previous, 200++ posts. 80% is about him.

How I been through when he wanted break up with me for the first time. Like, I blog bout him everyday. Even a single msg he send to me. eg : eaten?

i wrote in my blog, as a back talk!? Omo! Am I too insane on him that time? I think so... My friend told me how crazy am I towards him before this. Kisiao!

Im wondering now, why am I always mention about him? I hate him! I told my friend how much my hates to him, how annoying I felt and how irritating I felt.

BUT WHT THE FUCK IM DOING NOW?Is it this blog delicated to him? No hell way, please! Past was past. I believe I can color my life as colorful than before!

I post this blog NOT PURPOSELY wants him to read, thats it. Its a part of my storyline. I wish he can have brighter future. I don't wish everytime received his texts

telling me how suffering he is, how much he cant let me go, how much the blame he put on me. I don't like to read. Sometimes, I will only scrol down and press back.

Im cruel maybe!

Im tired/lazy to start everything from begining, seriously! It brings me a very big impact on relationship. you told me that I've the ability made you don't have confidence in relationship or on girls.

Hello, what about me?! You better ask yourself what have you done before this! Thr are fucking many things hidden behind, but who knows? who the hell I can tell too?

I dont want a fail relationship. Everytime, I wanted to move on

and everything is fine sure something make me reluctantly wants to move a step back. Hmmm. Do you all think I don't want a guy who can pamper me mer?

demnn. I saw my friend couple couple. I envy,okay!

p/s : Rain and yuri you both same kaki! Demnnn you! Im not made from transparent materials. jiak sai! Sekian,Telima kaseh.

Sometimes, I pretend to be tough. It feels so bad when act Im not. : (

Note for myself :

When people try to bring me down, they try to completely destroy me. Fuck you, bitch! I've cried as hard as I could possibly cry. I don’t know what I did wrong and I ask myself why. What did I do to deserve this? So, when life throws I something unexpected, I just have to keep my head up. This is realistic world! Fairy tales gone. : '(

end of the post.

#nowplaying : shou hao de xin fu neh?