Yes, you were one of best boyfriend I ever had. You treat me good as what I don't really expect thou. I really do appreciated. One thing, Im sorry I put you down. No matter how struggle Im wanted to be with you till the end of our road. I just can't, you know well in my heart you're not the first place but yea... you still trying so hard to be the one and fulfilling all the needs and wants I demanded and You pampered me like a baby. Im sorry I've been hurting you time by time just to make thing clear but you don't want too. I hate myself sometimes, how can I be that cruel to someone who treats me so good. What I can say is... love cannot be force. As what I always tell you,'' If we're meant to be, we'll be.'' but you just can't get it right. Im so speechless. Im so lost don't know what to do to make you let me go. Im so suffering each day whenever think of this. People arounds me asked me to ignore him and stop giving him hope. I cant do it, and Im not giving him hope but just know to hurt him again and again. I wish someday, he may really find out that, love can be force. Happiness is something both of the party agree but not being force to be. believe in faith. I had done everything. :)
Vip, the precious one in my life. Besides, my family. She is the one who always be with me when I need someone need by side. LY, rence. :) Yea, we're staying at difference place but it doesn't become our gap as we do always keep in touch with each other. Although, we're not meeting so often after starts our college life but still she is the one who I always think of and want to share my sad and happy thing with! Our last met, was during CNY. O.M.G! It's been so long.... I was wondering when will the next meet, babe? Oh well, we do have argument sometimes but hell wey, thats our way to communicate. teehee! Im here wishing you all the best for coming days, sincerely from bottom of my heart. *heart* Last but not least, you're the greatest buddy I ever had.
To be honest, I hate what my life is going on, I've asked myself why am I not born in rich family why am I need to suffered for so many thing that I shouldn't be worried at my age. But what can I do? Find ways to solve. Thats simply. From high school, I've to work to get what I want. Yea, if want to spend, then I need to work for it. Which makes me realised how realistic of this world. I admit Im materialistic and realistic so what? As long as I never did something bad which harmful. So much to write but... mind fucked.